The Longing Beneath the Longing
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This is Part 5 of a 9 part exploration on what
it means to live deeply, love well, and flourish as a human being.
If you'd like to read the previous reflections,
you can do so by clicking on the links at the end of this reflection.
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There are times when we know exactly what we're longing for.
We want a new job.
A healthier relationship.
Better health.
More time.
Less stress.
Those longings matter. Many of them deserve our attention.
But there is another kind of longing that can be more difficult to name.
It often appears when nothing is obviously wrong.
Life may actually be going pretty well.
And still, somewhere beneath the surface, we sense that something is asking for our attention.
Not necessarily something outside of us.
Something within us.
When More No Longer Feels Like the Answer
Many of us eventually discover that another accomplishment doesn't quiet this deeper longing.
Neither does another vacation. Another promotion. Another purchase. Another achievement.
For a while, each may bring genuine satisfaction.
But before long, the familiar restlessness returns.
Not because those things were wrong.
But because they were never meant to answer the deepest questions of the human heart.
I've come to believe that this kind of longing deserves our curiosity more than our judgment.
Because perhaps it isn't always telling us that something about our life needs to change.
Perhaps it's asking us to become more deeply present to the life we're already living - and to the place within ourselves from which we are living it!
That is a very different invitation.
A Different Kind of Change
For years, I assumed growth mostly meant adding something.
More knowledge.
More discipline.
More confidence.
More success.
Those things all have their place.
But increasingly, I've come to understand that some of the most important changes in our lives don't happen by adding something new.
They happen as we begin remembering something we've lost touch with.
That deeper presence we've been exploring throughout this series.
Not because we escape the life we've built.
But because we begin inhabiting it differently.
The work may remain the same.
Our family may remain the same.
Our responsibilities may remain the same.
Yet something about the way we meet all of it begins to change.
What Begins to Change
At first, the changes may be almost imperceptible.
We notice when we're grounded - and when we're not.
When we lose touch with ourselves, we recognize it a little sooner.
And perhaps we find our way back a little more easily.
Fear still visits us, but it doesn't have to make every decision.
Disappointment still hurts, but it doesn't have to tell us who we are.
We become less driven by the need to prove ourselves and increasingly able to simply inhabit our own lives.
And gradually, something else may begin to emerge.
What Begins To Emerge?
A growing trust in that deeper place within us.
We've visited it enough times that it begins to feel familiar.
We begin to discover that it can hold more of our lives than we realized.
Our fear.
Our uncertainty.
Our joy.
Our grief.
Even the questions we cannot yet answer.
For some people, this experience also begins to open toward something larger than themselves - and yet, somehow, something they encounter within themselves.
I've landed on calling it, “The Beyond within.”
Some speak of it as grace.
Some speak of it as God's presence.
Others experience it simply as a growing sense of connection, peace, or belonging that is difficult to explain.
I don't think we have to agree on the language.
What interests me is the experience.
As we become less consumed with protecting, proving, performing, and controlling.....
qualities such as love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, courage, and generosity can begin to arise differently.
Less like qualities we're trying to manufacture.
More like ways of being that become increasingly available when we are living from that deeper place.
Longing as a Guide
Perhaps this gives us another way to understand the longing we began with.
Maybe some of our deepest longing isn't evidence that we've failed to build the right life.
Maybe it isn't asking us to become more successful, more accomplished, or even more improved.
Maybe the longing beneath the longing is the desire to live our actual lives from a deeper place within ourselves.
Not another identity.
Not another achievement.
Not another version of ourselves.
A deeper way of inhabiting the life that is already ours.
Something to Notice
Over the next few days, pay attention when you feel that familiar sense of longing.
Especially when your first impulse is to figure out what needs to change.
Pause before answering it.
Rather than immediately asking:
“What do I need?”
try asking:
“What might this longing be inviting me toward?”
You don't need to force an answer.
Simply become curious.
Perhaps some longings really are asking us to change something about our lives.
But perhaps others are doing something much quieter.
They are reminding us that there is a deeper place within us from which this life is waiting to be lived.
And learning to recognize that invitation is another step in coming Home.
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This reflection is Part 5 of a 9 part series
exploring what it means to live deeply,
love well, and flourish as a human being.
Next: Remembering What Was Never Lost
If you'd like to read the previous reflections, here are the links:
Part 1: When Building a Good Life No Longer Feels Like Enough
Part 2: What Does It Mean to Come Home to Yourself?
Part 3: Why Do We Keep Losing Ourselves?
Part 4: When Protection Begins To Feel Like Home
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